“And life was too short to play chicken with something as important as the person you love”
First of all, this is my first read for June 2021 *round of applause*. I felt kind of guilty picking this book up from my bookshelf because it is a new book (bought it in May), so I should’ve picked a book that has been on my shelves collecting dust, but I have absolutely no regrets picking this book.
I’ve been in the mood for a cute, sweet romance and ‘Only Mostly Devestated’ delivered it— and so much more!
Only Mostly Devastated
Edition: Hardcover, 288 pages
Publication Date: March 3rd 2020 by Wednesday Books
ISBN: 1250315891 (ISBN13: 9781250315892)
SIMON VS. THE HOMO SAPIENS AGENDA meets CLUELESS in this boy-meets-boy spin on Grease
Summer love…gone so fast.
Will Tavares is the dream summer fling―he’s fun, affectionate, kind―but just when Ollie thinks he’s found his Happily Ever After, summer vacation ends and Will stops texting Ollie back. Now Ollie is one prince short of his fairy tale ending, and to complicate the fairy tale further, a family emergency sees Ollie uprooted and enrolled at a new school across the country. Which he minds a little less when he realizes it’s the same school Will goes to…except Ollie finds that the sweet, comfortably queer guy he knew from summer isn’t the same one attending Collinswood High. This Will is a class clown, closeted―and, to be honest, a bit of a jerk.
Ollie has no intention of pining after a guy who clearly isn’t ready for a relationship, especially since this new, bro-y jock version of Will seems to go from hot to cold every other week. But then Will starts “coincidentally” popping up in every area of Ollie’s life, from music class to the lunch table, and Ollie finds his resolve weakening.
The last time he gave Will his heart, Will handed it back to him trampled and battered. Ollie would have to be an idiot to trust him with it again.
This was so frickin’ cute. I loved this book so much.
“i really like music, i guess. So sue me”
“Yeah, well i really like you. So sue you” pg. 79
I could probably count in one hand the number of books that have left me feeling completely breathless. It’s such a rare occurrence, that it’s even more meaningful when its from a book you never expected. You know— moments where a book has just left such an impact that you just sit there in silence, staring at nothing, trying to process what you just read. Well, this was one of them.
‘Only Most Devastated’ is about Ollie. His whole life has just been uprooted, he’s back to being the new kid in his new school, his Aunt isn’t doing so well, and now his dream summer fling, Will, isn’t texting him back. He’s got no time to worry about some guy who doesn’t seem interested in him, but trying to keep his mind off of Will won’t be as easy as he thought.
Admittedly, so far I haven’t read as much LGBTQ+ books as I should have. I also don’t identify with any of the main characters so my comments on the representation in this book will only be from my perspective as a straight, cis female. Also, I recognise that my knowledge and opinion on this matter is very minuscule, but I am open to learning. That being said, I think the conversation between Laura, who identifies as bi, and Ollie was really important insight for an “outsider”.
“What if I betrayed queer women by doing that? Even if it was for me, and I didn’t give a shit what those guys thought, wasn’t I still basically reinforcing the idea that my sexuality is just there to get a guy off? I mean, think of the crap people say about bi girls only wanting attention.” Pg 200
I just think that this is a good perspective to be aware of, even if you don’t directly relate, it’s still “food for thought” and gives you something to think about. I love how these questions about sexuality and identity are being brought up a conversation— even if its between fictional characters because I think it could lead to real life conversations.
The romance was so, so cute. Like— I-hope-these-two-cherish-what-they-have-because-I want-it-too-kind-of-cute.
Ollie has came out to his family and friends, both in his old school and now his new friends, while Will still has questions. And that’s okay. It’s called growing up, discovering yourself, and figuring out where you fit in this crazy world. It’s confusing and frustrating, but you’ll get there eventually. Will kind of goes through his own journey of trying to figure himself out, the fear that comes along with it, and eventually accepting it. I also love that Ollie never forces Will to come out, or uses it against him. There was a slight push-and-pull between them during the beginning, which I enjoyed because I love the slow burn.
Can I also point out that the author, Sophia Gonzales, is kind enough to give us one of my favourite tropes: The ‘wearing-my-partner’s-oversized-jacket’ trope. I love it and I loved that scene, sue me.
I would also like to comment on how great of a character Ollie is. He had so much going on in his life all at once, and he took it look in stride. The friendships and relationships he formed were genuine that you found yourself rooting for him. His crush on Will was so genuine— he so was patient and understanding that I was ready to fight Will for him. He didn’t follow Will around like a lost puppy for long nor did he put up with any crap that others did to him. I literally yelled, and had put the book down to take a minute when Ollie said this:
“All this time, I’d been wondering when my needs would start to matter to him. Maybe I hadn’t spent enough time wondering when my needs would start to really matter to me” pg. 196
Have you read ‘Only Mostly Devastated’ by Sophie Gonzales? If so, let me know what you thought about it in the comments below!